Back from beyond the unknown!

Actually my whereabouts have been very known- NoVA, being pregnant with, then delivering, and now caring for, my really cool son Benjamin. Yes, I have crossed over into that world- the world where mothers talk incessantly and completely dote upon their babies. For an update (since it has been seven months), Ben was born March 12. He was a decently sized little boy, and had a mo-hawk when he came out! His first baby picture was taken in his Harley Davidson outfit. Anyway.
Tonight I saw "Mr & Mrs Smith" with, haha, my buddy Mike Smith. Let me just reiterate how much I love Angelina Jolie- I LOVE ANGELINA JOLIE. There you have it folks, a new movie to add to the "favorites" collection.
So this spring and so far, this summer have been passing with little to no activity, except for the one thing- I've been watching my son grow! He is getting so big and he smiles ALL OF THE TIME. Except when he's crying. Cause then he's, well, crying.
I finished up the most recent Harry Potter. I don't want to ruin it for anyone so suffice it to say that it was NOT satisfying in any way. The whole Dumbledore thing is so terrible, and yet again, Harry is correct in his major assumptions about certain unsavory characters. Also, his relationship with Ginny ends up sounding reminiscent of Spiderman and Mary Jane. IT IS SAD. VERY SAD. But this one simply left me more melancholy than the fifth, which actually made me cry.
So, I am scared about classes. I am scared that I will not succeed. Three semesters previous where I just steadily declined my effort and damn if it doesn't show. I figure each semester before I was so gung-ho, I "just knew!" I would do well. So this semester I am trying a different approach... I am more tentative about my abilities. I will not say I am doing well until I AM ACTUALLY DOING WELL. So much rides on my grades. My future, my chances at Law School (which, currently are very slim because of current GPA of 2.5). I do not want to be poor for the rest of my life, struggling to keep a job or to make ends meet... I want to have the luxury of experiencing life with my son. Not just working through it with no real purpose but just to survive.
December I will be moving to Fayetteville, so that Mark can be with Benjamin and I all of the time. Also to take a shot at this whole "family/marriage" thing. Scary almost, but exciting too. This is all riding on whether or not I get accepted into the college down there. These are times when I wish I had better worth ethic.
Well.
I am doing well at my Mom and Paul's. I don't know what I would do without my Mom right now. She helps a lot. She's about the only person Benjamin comes even close to trusting as much as he does me.
Benjamin is really really super amazing. You just have to meet him. I mean seriously.

Amy